The tunnel I had to travel through was dark, but I found the light... writing has always been a safe space for my healing! I'm grateful!
When the lights go out… That loneliness and worry creeps in… That darkness fills my soul… The guilt, the shame, the pain and the doubt, slowly but surely makes their way out. The tears are so loud yet there is no noise about… You stare meaningless at the ones you love who are oblivious to your feelings of not being enough… Every night the same, as tears slowly fill your eyes and you try to put yourself to sleep to avoid this terrible feeling inside. As your mind races a million miles an hour The thousand voices in your head just get louder and louder! You are a failure! No one likes you! No one cares and they are all talking about you! The voices just seem so near!!! There’s only one way out… This I know without a doubt I’m looking at this little beautiful being sleeping peacefully at my side, He depends so much on his Mama, how unfair to him would it be if I died? I'm trying so hard my baby, Mama just hasn’t been feeling well lately. The pressures and struggles of life seem so m
